Salila-Flambeau

At the end of my century's quarter My body emptied itself What was supposed to be the greatest dream Turned out to be the worst nightmare No laughs, only tears No hope, only fears No sun, only clouds No joy, only void A shooting star in my life A wink in my body A gaping hole in my heart An lone echo in my soul A torturing pain for now A scar forever A child in my memory A child in the sky I can't go back in time and reverse what was done I can only hope that the future won't be wrong I can't keep you in my arms I can only keep you in my heart and mind Take care of us little star Watch over your family Our family

Tomorrow, I will give birth to my little Noémie. She was due for December 14th, but there is malformations and she won't be able to survive outside my belly. So we decided to interrupt the pregnancy for her sake. She will always be my first child, my little shooting star.

Sunday, my grandmother passed away...She died of a lung's cancer. We learned about it May 4th, and May 31th, she was gone. It was sunny outside...she died on a Sunday, at 16:40, at the hour the family used to gather for the Sunday family supper. She died at the end of May, Marie's month, her favorite month. The lilac was blooming. She used to give lilac to us. I'll bring some to her tomb, and the scent of lilac will be with her. Au revoir, grand-maman...